40 weeks

40 weeks today. yuck yuck yuck! I have to say i am quite surprised I have made it this far. With all the aches and pains I have had this pregnancy, wow!
I have been having bouts of false labor for days now. Talk about discouraging.
Judging from my 38 week picture and my picture this week I have grown even more. yikes!
these past few days I have been sooooo hungry and nothing will curb it so that makes me wonder if the baby was having 1 last growth spurt before letting loose. Ive gained 1lb in the past week so I dont know where else all this food is going :/

I have an appt with my midwife tonight at 7:45. Kinda sucks that its so late but its better than nothing I guess.
I am having a battle within myself to try castor oil late tonight. Its always worked, yet I told myself I wanted this to start naturally. Wonder if my body knows how to jumpstart naturally since ive always done castor oil. once I get that first dose in, my body just takes over and does everything it should. It just tastes so gross. eh eh eh
We'll see.



This is the timer I got out for the kids to keep track of when the baby was due. and this is what I woke up to this morning. Yup baby, if only YOU kept track of it too then you would know that you are not on time!
the kids are all confused still even though I explain it to them daily. They thought when it hit zero the baby was coming out right then. It was cute at first but then it grew into something annoying cause they all asked a million times a day for weeks now.
Plus I put the due date on my calender on my phone and that went off today saying it was Phoenix's due date. Great reminder. Like my body isnt feeling this.

Here is the final picture taken today. 40 weeks.
im tired, my body hurts. its getting hot outside and my maternity wardrobe does not reflect the weather change. HELP ME!

39 weeks

I had an appt with my midwife on Monday, May 23rd. I was 38.6 weeks. BP was perfect, HB was 140 I believe. I was measuring smaller which meant that the baby had dropped and from where she picked up the HB he/she had dropped ALOT. I knew I was able to breath better and walking was more challenging. Now it makes me really nervous that labor will go super fast.
My next appt is in the evening of the 31st. I am hoping to go before then. By Sunday evening would be perfect as I will have to resume the school routine on Tuesday when the kids go back to school after the holiday.

Im having daily contractions. Most evenings I get to the point where I think "this is it" but after a little while everything fizzles out and I just end up going to bed and have a miserable night of trying to toss and turn.

Last night (may 26th) was my last day working. bittersweet. I like the ladies I work with yet working was becoming a huge challenge. Just being on my feet that long was torture. Im glad will have a chance for a little bit of "rest" before baby comes.

I didnt take a belly pic this week. didnt feel like it. If I am still pregnant on my due date then I will take a pic then. It will definitely be the LAST picture too! Me and this baby are going to have a long talk if he/she doesnt come by then.

38 weeks

holy crap, ive got 2 weeks left until im due. providing I make it that far. I don't think I will but we'll see. besides Malikai, who was induced at 38.2 weeks, the earliest I went was right at 39 weeks for Tiler.I have 5 more shifts to make it through at work before I am done. My 2 I had over this past weekend were very difficult. They were only 5hrs and 5.5 hours long but being on my feet for that long was causing alot of pain. So much that I had all I could do to keep my composure. I have a 7hr and 7.5 hour shifts this coming weekend. I am hoping to get those dropped down to around 4 hours a piece. I dont think I can do the full shifts and I refuse to put myself into labor cause I am working too much.

Ive been having alot of swelling still. It hits me pretty early on in the morning and sticks with me all day. My shoes are quite tight and uncomfortable. Contractions are coming and going but mostly in the evening time when I am trying to relax for the night. I end up going to bed so they will stop but then that raises another issue of my hips hurting SO BAD. I feel like a 90 year old woman trying to walk around especially during the night when I have to use the bathroom. I can barely move. Ahhh I dont miss this part of pregnancy at all! Its amazing how much you forget!

the fatigue is outrageous the last few days. Ive done the whole school routine for the last 5 days and im feeling it! By the time I come home from bringing Malikai to school (and towing the other 3 with us) I am beat. I try to take a rest on the couch but with Jamison running around I cant really fall asleep so I just feel like a zombie all day long. I should get a bit of a break for the next 5 days so I am looking forward to that. But after that Im back to full on school duty until after im due. ive got major anxiety over all of that. Just these simple tasks wear me out and cause alot of discomfort but its for my kids so mama has to suck it up


Finally got the babes diaper stash done. Its a mix of fitteds, covers and pocket diapers. Its so tiny compared to what I had for Jamison. But we will be using sposies too until I know if I really want to handle cloth full time at this point. I still use cloth with Jamison but having 2 in diapers is alot different!


then here is another belly pic.

37 week appt.

I had an appt with my midwife yesterday. Even though I love my midwife, I am looking forward to being done with my appts. Mostly because that means the baby will be here and I.AM.DONE. im SO over being pregnant now. DONE DONE DONE.
BP was 110/60 so its staying normal now
im up 2 pounds. Its water. im soooo swollen. I have no ankles and my toes look like little sausages.
I am measuring about a week ahead.
Babes heartbeat was 140 and still head down! I keep getting told that I have dropped but as far as my lungs are concerned, I have not felt that yet. I do know that the movements are getting extremely painful to the point where they bring tears to my eyes. It got bad last night. I barely could keep my composure :(
People keep saying that I will go early. My luck I will go to the very end. Its best if I do anyway seeing that there is conflicting schedules right up until the day after im due which SUCKS! Plus your mind can be an amazing thing, if you dont have the right mindset it can taper things off and i dont want that yet I cant inconvenience anything either. blah.

my next appt isnt until the 23rd. I dont mind it being further than a week out. Its not like I have intense appts and if something is going on then of course I would just call my midwife.

I have all the babys diapers done and made. I still have to wash 3 of them that I just finished last night. I will have to take a picture. Its a pretty pathetic stash compared to what Jamison had but its still enough. Plus we are going to use sposies part time.

Finished picking up the last 2 things for the birth kit last night too, so that was a huge relief! the only other thing that needs to be finished is a shirt for the baby to wear right after birth. Daddy is going to make a homebirth shirt. one in blue and one in pink. Once those are done then EVERYTHING is all set and baby is more than welcome to come any time.

37 weeks

Here I am in my 9 month trying to get all the last minute things done. I made a large "to do" list before baby comes and I *almost* have it all done. Who knows if it will all get done in time. I am so tired these days that I dont even care how my house looks let alone getting a list completed. I have all I can do to get the school routine done in a timely manner.
I am a raging hormonal mess. the mood swings are full force. I feel bad for my family that they have to endure all of this. I just have to keep telling myself that it will be over with soon.

Its hard to think that sometime in the next few weeks there will be a baby in the house. Jamison has become wayyyy attached to me, alot more than usual. I am totally loving it. Well most of the time. There becomes a period in some days where I simply cant be touched no longer. It makes me feel guilty because I want to do nothing more than spend these final moments with my kids.

After having 5 days off in a row at work I went back last night for a 5 hour shift. It was seriously the longest 5 hours of my life. I was fine all day but on my way there I started getting crampy, contractions here and there. During the evening the baby was moving in such painful ways it would stop me in my tracks.
I don't have my schedule for my final week at work (which is only 4 days) but so far I have only 7 shifts. Maybe I will get lucky and they wont schedule me. I doubt it though. 2 of those 4 days fall on a weekend and im always scheduled on weekends.
Although it would be ideal to have the baby sometime between the 27th-30th. The kids dont have school during that time. But we'll see. My luck I will go all the way to the very end. I have been stuck on June 1st for a long time now.
Tiler however has a field trip to our local zoo on June 7th, that will be interesting cause I will not be missing that! So either I will be a week overdue or I will be walking around with a brand new baby.

I have an appt on Thursday the 12th. I doubt anything "exciting" will be reported. I am going to decline any dilation checks this time around. I am just not in the mood to be checked or get my hopes up of pending labor. It will happen when the baby is ready. Although it is rather depressing to hear about everyone around you having their baby and here you sit, a fat beached whale waiting and waiting. Granted I am not due yet...just not the point

36 weeks

36 weeks today. ONLY 4 weeks to go before my due date. AHHH. I had Tiler at 39 weeks which was my earliest natural delivery.
I finally have my birth kit and pool. Picked up a couple things from Walmart that I wasnt going to order. Only thing left I need to get is a mattress pad cover. I always have one just by chance my water breaks in bed. Plus I also sit in my bed right after delivery and even though I sit on those neat little underpads I want to be careful.
The kids are getting more and more excited. I have been telling them from early on that its going to be my birthday then after that the baby will come. Well my birthday is tomorrow so then the only thing left to countdown is the baby.
I know I always get nervous as labor is pending, but this time its almost got me panic stricken just thinking about it. Between working up until my due date and having to do the whole school routine and everything that final week all by myself I am afraid something is going to happen when I am not home. Its difficult enough to drive our new truck but to drive and be having contractions. yikes!
Bennett's last day of school is on the 26th so providing I go past that, at least I dont have to do that part of the routine. that is the most physical part since we have to walk him inside up a ton of stairs. But I have to wait about 45 mins in Malikai and Tilers parking lot to pick them up. I have to get there early enough to find a parking spot that I can pull forward in since the truck is so large I hate backing up especially without backup sensors so I always make sure to pull forward in a spot so I can easily pull right out. I absolutely can not get stuck in the drive thru line. My luck the one day I will get stuck is when I will go into labor.
The girls at work keep teasing me that I will go into labor there and they will just stick me in the family fitting room to deliver. hehe. I already made a point in telling all of them that they better not call 911 or any funny business like that. I don't want that hassle. I know I wont be able to drive home alone, but im sure I could get a ride if needed. Hopefully I wont get scheduled very much my last week to lessen the chances of anything happening there.
On another note, I had my 36wk appt yesterday. I had a 3lb weight gain. Part of it was I had pizza and pop over the weekend and neither one agrees with me at all. Plus I had just had a large lunch and a TON of water right before my appt. Before all of that I was only 1lb up from my last appt. I am so glad I seem to be averaging out. Still have an outrageous ending number. boo.
My BP was 110/60 which is better than what it has been so that is great! I still have the dizzy spells a couple times a week but overall its getting better. Thankfully.
Babes heartbeat was 147 and strong. Still in the same position which includes being head down YEAH!
and I am still measuring just over a week ahead. Not too bad. She thinks (so do I) that im on track to having another larger baby. Thats ok though. I know my body can handle it. just have to stay confident and let my body work its magic when its time.