bunch of nonsense rolled into one...

I am a part of a really neat forum and within this forum there is a section for conception/pregnancy etc.. The mamas on there started talking about baby gear and it dawned on me. I HAVE NOTHING! I don't have enough clothes, I have only a few cloth diapers. Thats it. I dont have a swing, obviously need more clothes and diapers. If its a boy I have no car seat. WTF am I going to do???
I dont have a huge desire to run out and buy a bunch of stuff. Me? I dont want to shop? I have to be more money conscious this time around because we need to get another vehicle, a bigger vehicle and I cant be doing that if im blowing it on everything cute in sight.
I know what swing I want, I just have to find it since I refuse to pay full price for it so I have been stalking craigslist with no luck. I plan on using Jamisons old car seat for the baby but we need to get her a new one and I probably wont do that until tax time. Plus if this baby ends up being a boy then I need to get a new seat cover. I might go out today and hit up Gymboree's sale they are having to see if I can find some summer clothes for a steal. Its really weird buying summer clothes when its 30 degrees with snow on the ground.

I have been feeling a ton of movement <3. yesterday I was having quite a few braxton hicks and I happened to be laying down on my back and i could see the baby moving around, just the slightest movements. if I remember correctly, when I was pregnant with Jamison I didnt experience this until closer to 20-21 weeks. im not complaining though. I have had a ton of anxiety this time around so this just helps ease my mind.

We have picked out a name. Still struggling on the middle name. Well we have those too, I just have to make sure I am totally loving the one for a boy.
Boy- Phoenix Star
Girl- Phoenix Ivory
I picture "star" as being on the girly side. but we'll see. I had a different idea for a girls first name, but I have fallen in love with Phoenix so I cant see myself changing it like I seem to always do.

I told myself that I was going to stop taking belly pics every week and just try to go every 4 weeks so you can obviously see a difference but now I am regretting not taking my 18 wk one on Tuesday. granted its only Thursday but it will throw everything off. I loved how I did it every week for Jamison.

thats enough babbling for now....

18 weeks!

5 months today AHHHH! Almost half way there! this is seriously going by really fast. I am so not prepared in any way. clothes, diapers, gear. nothing! By this time with Jamison I had totes full of stuff just waiting from a very early time. Well with my first 3, the second I found out their sex, I was at the store and buying everything. I just havent had that urge to buy anything. Ive gotten a few cloth diapers and a few outfits for a boy and a girl but definitely not enough stuff to even get through a full day.
my exhaustion is back full swing. Ever since I got that cold a couple weeks ago I havent been able to bounce back. I am a walking zombie and I feel bad for my other kids. We really havent done much on their Christmas vacation. Just hanging out at home in our pjs watching movies and playing with toys. I think it bothers me more than them.
I am feeling very full and very fat this past week. all my clothes are getting tighter even though I am not having a considerable weight gain. My uterus is right at the top of my belly button, where as at 16 weeks it was right at the bottom of my belly button so I have grown quite a bit.
I am feeling alot more movement the last few days too. Nothing I can catch on the outside with my hand. Just that 1 time last week. What a tease! But I will take what I have now, because before long the movement will be painful and be wishing for some relief.
My vision is getting really bad. It was already not great before getting pregnant, but over the last 4 weeks its really went downhill, so I have been getting headaches on and off.
I think that is it for this week.

17 weeks

So I had every intention of posting yesterday when I turned 17 weeks but I got busy with the kids and didnt get around to it. They are on their Christmas break right now and although its nice to have a break from the school routine, they are so full of energy and driving me batty. Never realized how loud they are. WOW!
So today I am 17.1 weeks. This past week went by really fast! I feel like i have gotten bigger. I have gained a couple pounds since my appt last week with my midwife but I can assure you its all because of the fruit I have been eating. Fruit, Salad and hamburgers have been a big hit with me this past week. I cant get enough of oranges. My new obsession. Who is this child? Why are they making me crave FRUIT. I am not really complaining, its just with my past pregnancies fruit was the furthest thing I wanted.
I am starting to get a little uncomfortable while sleeping. mostly my hips. they get sore very quickly, so I just have to cross my fingers I can fall asleep before they start to hurt.
I broke down and went on a much needed grocery trip. Been almost a month I think lol. It wasnt a crazy stressful trip, the kids were really good and helpful. But by the time I got home I was so exhausted and just not feeling well at all. The minute I sat on the couch I fell asleep. I was hoping I would be able to get a little further along before I started getting this tired from little outings. This past week I have been needing a little cat nap in the afternoon also. I treat myself to a small cappuccino on days that I am working so that little bit of caffeine helps me get through my work day. Its my weakness in the winter time. I could drink it all day long, but I am limiting it to only days that I work and I only drink it 1 time so I dont overload. Baby tolerates it too. I dont feel any bouncing around :)
Speaking of bouncing around. The night before last, right before I was going to go to bed, I felt the baby kick for the first time on the outside. It was really small and only happened 1 time. I have been feeling movement but it seems like every time I put my hand on my stomach the kicking stops. I felt it right where my waist bends. I was sitting down at the time too. It was a great feeling. Im going to enjoy it now before it gets painful and I wished I had a break from it.

Last but not least. I had a picture taken yesterday. I think I will resort to just taking a picture of myself in the mirror lol.
Little miss Jamison had to join in too.

16th week!

As of today I am 16.3 weeks. Would have updated sooner but I have been sick...still! Today is day 11 of this nasty head cold. I am starting to be on the mend but still sick enough to make me feel exhausted and overwhelmed.
I had an appt yesterday with my midwife. Went by super fast. Nice and boring, just how I like and need it.
I have gained 4lbs. which is not bad for me! I seem to be on track now for what is normal for me at least. the first trimester was just a nightmare! the babes heartbeat was about 160 and so far I am measuring normal. So maybe for once I wont birth a cow? lol. I typically dont start measuring big until I get closer to the end of the 2nd trimester.
Aside from that nothing is going on. I was going to take a picture this week but never got around to it so I will just start back up on my 17th week. Lets hope I dont forget to do it then :)

First Belly Pic

I got called into work so I had to work fast on trying to get a decent pic. Didnt turn out the greatest. very grainy. blah. I couldnt even try to edit anything just because I had no time so this is all I have for this week.
so it was taken yesterday at 15.2 weeks

15 weeks

15.2 weeks if you want to get technical. Its been a crazy week and I just didnt feel like sitting down to post anything. I dont even want to right now, but figured I might as well. We have all been sick. The kids first and I started coming down with a cold several days into it and now I am miserable. I know I am not bouncing back quickly because my immune system is already compromised just from being pregnant but also I am getting very little down time to rest. I just want to sleep! I know I could probably take some cold medicine to help relieve the symptoms but I HATE taking anything when I am pregnant. If this lasts another day though I might have to. I tried to work last night and I was miserable. I have to work for the next 3 nights.

I havent weighed myself so I dont know about that.
I did the doppler yesterday and found the HB very quickly. it was in the 130s.
My next appt is coming up on the 16th already!

I have been an emotional basket case the past couple weeks. its gotten bad this week. Maybe because I am sick? Little things really set me off and overwhelms me. I hate it. I hate crying. Its never been an ok thing as I was growing up so doing it now just doesnt feel right. So I get embarrassed. blah

Oh something that did come about was I was trying to book the photographer that did Jamisons birth and she is out. She is pregnant too and due a few weeks before me. She recommended a couple other people to me and I thought I had booked one of them but after a few days she realized there was conflicting schedules so now she is out. I dont know what to do anymore. Right now I dont have the energy to find someone, yet if I keep waiting, everyone will be booked.

Im going to try and get a picture today. I have to take one myself. I hate those kind of pictures. Having my big camera in the picture but there isnt much more I can do to get one.