Week 13

Holy shit, im 13 weeks. I cant decide if this is going by really fast or if I am going as slow as a snail. I did find out veryyyy early on. So this is my last week in the first trimester. I always thought week 13 was the first week of the 2nd trimester but I read differently today. This is also my last week of month 3. Crazy! im sure it will go by even faster with the holidays fast approaching.
I have various rants this week.
1. I am to the point where I just feel like a damn beached whale. nothing looks good. I feel like I have fat rolls sticking out of my shirts that are getting tight instead of everything looking so round and baby like. From head to toe looks like shit. My hair is horrible, my face is dull, my boobs look like a porn star, my hips look like they dont even belong to my body cause they are so effin wide. I didnt sign up for any of this. I signed up to look like a glowing beauty with perfect curves everywhere. WTF?? This baby HAS to be a boy. only my boys have made me look like this.

2. yeah that was only 1 rant above. My next one, im moody. I am sooooo moody. everything annoys me. From hearing my alarm in the morning to simply having to walk from point A to point B annoys me. Breathing annoys me, the cold annoys me, people annoy me. I swear I have a sign on my head that attracts all the stupid people to come talk to me. If I hear 1 more persons life story at work I am going to cry. Ok so I dont mind being friendly to a customer, but I dont care that your crotch hurts cause you are pregnant and the baby lays weird. I dont care that your child is the devil and you want to leave them at the store. I dont care what size boobs your girlfriend had or how your other clothes dont fit. Or that your underwear is so tight you refer to them as nut crunchers and that your ex wife is a dumb old broad. I DONT CARE! Why do people think that others want to hear this??

3. Gas. Now come on. What cruel things have I done to deserve this?? My body rejects everything every pregnancy and its just not fair. Yeah I do get some good laughs about it especially when I catch my family off guard. But seriously, how much longer?? Its just not cool. Why wasnt that taught in anything ive read about pregnancy. Someone could have warned me.
I came across this site today. It is hilarious. It had me in tears. All to familiar lol
http://www.hisboyscanswim.com/473/pregnancy-gas-early-pregnancy-wifes-gas-drives-husband-out-of-house

4. Anxiety. Wow! I have never been through this. Its been pretty bad. I am just a nervous wreck! Good example, Last week Bennett and Jamison had to spend the night at Grandmas house and I sat on my couch crying cause I couldnt handle it. I could feel myself getting all worked up over nothing really. I simply just wanted my babies home and in their own bed.

I think that is the conclusion of my rants for this week.
On a good note, there is some good things that has happened

1. my weight gain has stablized. I am still gaining, but its very minimal. Well at least since I have seen my midwife last week. I hope it stays like this cause I am not looking forward to gaining 50+ pounds which is what I will do but I hope its more spread out over the next 27 weeks

2. I have felt the baby move a few times. Its typically only 1-2 times a day. so far nothing yet today, but its always went I am sitting and the kick is right where I bend at the waist. I <3 that feeling. calms my nerves!

Well I guess that is the conclusion for this week. I might have more later on. Still not ready to post a picture. I really should. Its just simply being too lazy to dig out my camera.