37 weeks

Here I am in my 9 month trying to get all the last minute things done. I made a large "to do" list before baby comes and I *almost* have it all done. Who knows if it will all get done in time. I am so tired these days that I dont even care how my house looks let alone getting a list completed. I have all I can do to get the school routine done in a timely manner.
I am a raging hormonal mess. the mood swings are full force. I feel bad for my family that they have to endure all of this. I just have to keep telling myself that it will be over with soon.

Its hard to think that sometime in the next few weeks there will be a baby in the house. Jamison has become wayyyy attached to me, alot more than usual. I am totally loving it. Well most of the time. There becomes a period in some days where I simply cant be touched no longer. It makes me feel guilty because I want to do nothing more than spend these final moments with my kids.

After having 5 days off in a row at work I went back last night for a 5 hour shift. It was seriously the longest 5 hours of my life. I was fine all day but on my way there I started getting crampy, contractions here and there. During the evening the baby was moving in such painful ways it would stop me in my tracks.
I don't have my schedule for my final week at work (which is only 4 days) but so far I have only 7 shifts. Maybe I will get lucky and they wont schedule me. I doubt it though. 2 of those 4 days fall on a weekend and im always scheduled on weekends.
Although it would be ideal to have the baby sometime between the 27th-30th. The kids dont have school during that time. But we'll see. My luck I will go all the way to the very end. I have been stuck on June 1st for a long time now.
Tiler however has a field trip to our local zoo on June 7th, that will be interesting cause I will not be missing that! So either I will be a week overdue or I will be walking around with a brand new baby.

I have an appt on Thursday the 12th. I doubt anything "exciting" will be reported. I am going to decline any dilation checks this time around. I am just not in the mood to be checked or get my hopes up of pending labor. It will happen when the baby is ready. Although it is rather depressing to hear about everyone around you having their baby and here you sit, a fat beached whale waiting and waiting. Granted I am not due yet...just not the point